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[OTA Log] Crystal Rain the Markets
Who; Nida, OTA
What; Crystal Rain and An Emotional Support Guard
Where; The Markets District
When; Week of the Crystal Rains, Jan 9th to 15th
Warnings; Trauma from memories possible. CW: Discussions of character death, suicidal ideation, and suicide in thread with Ignis
Note; To access any of Nida's memories (if you're interested), check here
A. The Start Of Something Strange
It starts not long after Nida starts on his shift for the day. He'd just been minding his own business, going through the morning market, considering the spice stand that he usually used to get little bundles of spice for Ignis. And then, out of nowhere, a blur of green glinting by Nida's face. He stepped back in shock, expecting some sort of threat, because there surely weren't birds here that were colors as vivid at that. And as he twisted away he stepped backwards and something struck him on the head, bouncing to the ground. Nida flinched and looked down and there, a golden, glowing crystal.
Touching it was foolish, Nida knew that, but there was something compelling him. His fingers curled around the small golden crystal and... there it was. An overwhelming sense of trust for... Tobey? That didn't make any sense. Fearful he dropped the crystal and stood up, looking at those falling around him. Without thinking he caught a crimson one out of the air. This one overwhelmed him with love, icy blue eyes, and a smile as sharp and quick as a dagger. The name almost came with a sob to Nida's lips before he felt Siren swelling in his head, reaching out and consuming the memory before it could settle.
"Everyone stay under cover," he called out to the nearby merchants and shoppers. "Don't touch the crystals!"
Of course people already were. Dammit. How was he supposed to stop people from getting caught up in painful memories? He was so tired of all of this happening!
B. Staggered by Memory
[Note: my intention is for Nida to access memories of people who interact with this one. So if you tag it and have memories shared, I'll select one to react to for the character. If your character doesn't have any, I'll have him experience one from another one of my muses.]
There was a lot to be said for the fact that the rain of crystals didn't end. Nida had gone to briefing with the captain and sighed when he heard there was little to nothing they could do about this new strangeness. Sure, the captain would deploy a team to investigate, and talk to the Aspects, but damn if that didn't really deal with the current problem.
Which for Nida was what he saw now as he stopped by a new stall in the market.
"Is this..." he said, reaching out to touch a bejeweled bracelet. One that was set with a stone that glowed with its own internal light. Was someone really making jewelry with these?
The only way to be sure was to touch the crystal. And when the memory within passed Nida growled in annoyance.
"How DARE you sell someone's memories as decoration!"
C. Shelter and Comfort
"Over here!" Nida called out from under the awning of the market district's guard outpost. It wasn't a very large building, but it was sheltered from the fall of crystals, and he had absolutely just seen someone pick up a crystal.
"I've got warm drinks and small pastries, and an ear to listen," he offered to the person who had gathered the crystal. "You know, if you want to talk. Or just to eat."
What; Crystal Rain and An Emotional Support Guard
Where; The Markets District
When; Week of the Crystal Rains, Jan 9th to 15th
Warnings; Trauma from memories possible. CW: Discussions of character death, suicidal ideation, and suicide in thread with Ignis
Note; To access any of Nida's memories (if you're interested), check here
A. The Start Of Something Strange
It starts not long after Nida starts on his shift for the day. He'd just been minding his own business, going through the morning market, considering the spice stand that he usually used to get little bundles of spice for Ignis. And then, out of nowhere, a blur of green glinting by Nida's face. He stepped back in shock, expecting some sort of threat, because there surely weren't birds here that were colors as vivid at that. And as he twisted away he stepped backwards and something struck him on the head, bouncing to the ground. Nida flinched and looked down and there, a golden, glowing crystal.
Touching it was foolish, Nida knew that, but there was something compelling him. His fingers curled around the small golden crystal and... there it was. An overwhelming sense of trust for... Tobey? That didn't make any sense. Fearful he dropped the crystal and stood up, looking at those falling around him. Without thinking he caught a crimson one out of the air. This one overwhelmed him with love, icy blue eyes, and a smile as sharp and quick as a dagger. The name almost came with a sob to Nida's lips before he felt Siren swelling in his head, reaching out and consuming the memory before it could settle.
"Everyone stay under cover," he called out to the nearby merchants and shoppers. "Don't touch the crystals!"
Of course people already were. Dammit. How was he supposed to stop people from getting caught up in painful memories? He was so tired of all of this happening!
B. Staggered by Memory
[Note: my intention is for Nida to access memories of people who interact with this one. So if you tag it and have memories shared, I'll select one to react to for the character. If your character doesn't have any, I'll have him experience one from another one of my muses.]
There was a lot to be said for the fact that the rain of crystals didn't end. Nida had gone to briefing with the captain and sighed when he heard there was little to nothing they could do about this new strangeness. Sure, the captain would deploy a team to investigate, and talk to the Aspects, but damn if that didn't really deal with the current problem.
Which for Nida was what he saw now as he stopped by a new stall in the market.
"Is this..." he said, reaching out to touch a bejeweled bracelet. One that was set with a stone that glowed with its own internal light. Was someone really making jewelry with these?
The only way to be sure was to touch the crystal. And when the memory within passed Nida growled in annoyance.
"How DARE you sell someone's memories as decoration!"
C. Shelter and Comfort
"Over here!" Nida called out from under the awning of the market district's guard outpost. It wasn't a very large building, but it was sheltered from the fall of crystals, and he had absolutely just seen someone pick up a crystal.
"I've got warm drinks and small pastries, and an ear to listen," he offered to the person who had gathered the crystal. "You know, if you want to talk. Or just to eat."
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"How do you tell someone something like this, Ignis? That before you met him, he didn't want to live? That I don't go drinking because when I drink I think about it all and it's hard to believe in anything at all? What... if you didn't love me anymore?"
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"But would you have abandoned me if this were the other way around?"
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Nida's hands pull out of Ignis's grip. Already his hands were going to his wrist, wishing he had the jade and gold bracelet. The thing was, he had already told this to Ignis some.
"And honestly, I'm trying so hard to move past him. TO move past the broken pieces Elijah left of me. I want to be seen as whole. As rebuilt, like you helped me become. You took pieces broken for the second time and put them together. But if I broke twice, why would you want to be with me because it would mean I would break a third time."
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"I don't see you as a broken person. You are a very warm and kind and loving man. But should you indeed break, then I will be there to help put the pieces back together, no matter how many times it's required."
Ignis could only hope he was somehow getting through here and worried that he wasn't.
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"I don't know what I expect," he said at last. "I just didn't want it to be a burden on you. From what little I understand of what you've lived, you've always held other people up, guiding your prince along. I figured the last thing you needed was to do that with me too. I just don't..."
Fuck, this wasn't stuff he talked about. With the Boss and his Brother, they had understood it. They were military background too. They got sacrifice and how it killed you. And yet... He was never really giving credit to Ignis for being the same thing, was he?
"Shit," he whispered to himself. Because he really had said that. "Fuck!"
Then he was pacing.
"You're like a SeeD, with your training."
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Why his husband pacing and swearing? What exactly was going on in that head of his? So he stood still, other than putting his back to a wall to wait this out. And then there was that statement.
True it wasn't the conversation he wanted to have, but if it would help illuminate this troublesome spot, he'd welcome it. "And how do you figure that?"
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Nida wraps his arms around himself, as if he's trying to comfort himself. Because really, he is.
"The way we think about other people, as SeeDs, is we assume that when people see us like that, they don't get it. They can't understand why we do this to ourselves. So we shut people out. It's a lot of how I act."
Hell, it's sort of how he acted with Yuki because the guy doesn't seem to get it. Didn't always understand nida. But Nida was more open with Mono, because the kid got it.
"I thought of you more as the latter, when you're the former. I think."
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"I recall us speaking about duty and sacrifice. We understood that about each other, which was one of the reasons I found us to be so compatible." Ignis replied with a nod. He did remember them talking about that.
But still, he uncrossed his arms and walked to where Nida stood, and it bothered Ignis that his husband chose to hug himself rather than come hug him. But that really didn't matter at the end of everything and he used a few fingers to lift the man's face to look at him. "I am here to help you bear your burdens, no matter how heavy or how light. And I'm not here simply for good times but for all of them, both good and bad."
CW: Suicide mention again
"You... don't blame me for believing his lies?" Nida asks, his voice soft as he looked up at Ignis, his husband's fingers under his chin. "That I'm such a coward that I wanted to die rather than facing it? I failed that day, Ignis, in letting him control me and not seeing it before. And I was a SeeD. Everything about what I was said 'it is better that I die to see the mission successful', and when it did, I was upset that I hadn't. So I tried to make it. How can you love me after that? How can you be sure of me?"
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He tried a smile. "I love you because of who you are and what you mean to me. And while I will admit to being a bit knocked off kilter because of finding out these things we didn't discuss, that doesn't mean I'm walking away from you now or ever."
Ignis then gently tugged his husband into an embrace, "Just promise me that if anything happens like that again or you feel that low, you'll notify me at once no matter where you are. And I will come running to help you."
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"I promise," he says, his voice firm, swearing it. BUt he's shaking in Ignis's arms. Because he's scared. He's scared because... Because it's so close.
"I haven't touched this all in so long. But now with the blade and this... I'm scared."
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"I am by your side. But I must confess I have to inquire as to how I can best assist and be of service with this." He didn't want to step a foot wrong, especially with a situation as delicate as this. And he wanted to know his boundaries or what Nida's were.
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Other than break down.
"Don't leave me alone right now. And promise me that if you still have those crystals, you won't bring them near me. Siren... she won't take the memories and the pain away. I don't know why she won't take them."
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"I've no intention of leaving you alone."
Siren's actions or non actions were puzzling, but she probably had her reasons. "Then I will take you home and I can tuck you into bed with some tea and something to eat. Or we can do whatever it is that you wish. You've no need to worry that I will bring the crystals anywhere near you."
He could only hope he was being helpful here.
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"I have a duty here," Nida said, falling back on that without even realizing he's doing it. "I'm trying to help people."
He was burying his face in Ignis's shoulder thought, because he doesn't want to be left alone.
"I don't understand it. I don't understand why he did that to me. I don't know why it never stopped hurting."
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Feeling his husband's head in his shoulder just sort of solidified his point, but he went with what he was hearing. "I don't know why darling. But we can talk about this for as long as you like."
Or not of course. Any which way it went, Ignis was going to firmly stand beside his husband.
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Still, he worried, the words are a worry. It made him cling tighter.
"I should. I should tell you more. But fuck. I don't know where the one memory stopped for you. I don't know how to talk to you about it when you may have almost seen me die."
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That thought alone could drop him.
But he had to be strong, especially right at the moment.
His eyes were searching for Nida's superior, but he didn't see him. Ignis wasn't above asking to take his husband home because he was really in no condition to be a help to anyone else at the moment.
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And here he was, stuck at his little outpost, because this one didn't have his superiors at it. It was just a little hub for this part of the markets, so he and his shift team could come out of the weather or make report paperwork.
"I'm sorry, I... You might need to go to the station house to see if I can leave early."
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But Ignis was known for having a silver tongue when he needed it, anyone could ask Noctis how they got into Altissia on that account. "And we can leave when you're ready, there's no rush."
And heavens help anyone that tried to mess with Nida at the moment.
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"I don't know that I'm ready yet," Nida admitted with a sigh. "I hate it when things like this happened. It happened in both the previous worlds."
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"But I will wait until you're ready."
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"I don't want you upset over me being upset. EVen if I understand that's the way it should be. That's what partners do, right?"
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wrap here?