How tightly he'd been holding all of it since he had been pulled out of that fountain by the Boss. How much he'd tried to push people away if they knew, to hide the flaws. And here it was now, his husband finding the worst parts of his life and still loving him.

"You... don't blame me for believing his lies?" Nida asks, his voice soft as he looked up at Ignis, his husband's fingers under his chin. "That I'm such a coward that I wanted to die rather than facing it? I failed that day, Ignis, in letting him control me and not seeing it before. And I was a SeeD. Everything about what I was said 'it is better that I die to see the mission successful', and when it did, I was upset that I hadn't. So I tried to make it. How can you love me after that? How can you be sure of me?"