All Nida can do is sigh as he moves to sit down. He spent a lot of time trying to recover from all that has happened. Damn but this was harder than expected.
"I... don't know if I can go back, Ignis, because I don't know if I'm alive. I opened my wrists that day. And as I was bleeding out, I awoke in the fountain in the Iteration again. In the middle of the winter. My grief was so deep, but my wrists were closed. Everyone that came there, even as they died, came in healed. But you could still die there. So I chose to not try and get out. Drowning or hypothermia, it didn't matter. I resolved that if the world wanted to let me die, I'd allow it."
That night had been the worst. Nida shivered at the remembered cold.
"While I was there I had helped a man form a watch to protect others. We had been lovers too, from time to time. He found me in the fountain and took me to his home to help me warm up and heal. Kept Seb and my brother away for a while because I feared the former would hate the new age between us and he hurt me because I would remember Elijah. The later because of the connections to him. So... I isolated for a whole and struggles to find a reason to live again."
CW: Discussions of suicide and character death
"I... don't know if I can go back, Ignis, because I don't know if I'm alive. I opened my wrists that day. And as I was bleeding out, I awoke in the fountain in the Iteration again. In the middle of the winter. My grief was so deep, but my wrists were closed. Everyone that came there, even as they died, came in healed. But you could still die there. So I chose to not try and get out. Drowning or hypothermia, it didn't matter. I resolved that if the world wanted to let me die, I'd allow it."
That night had been the worst. Nida shivered at the remembered cold.
"While I was there I had helped a man form a watch to protect others. We had been lovers too, from time to time. He found me in the fountain and took me to his home to help me warm up and heal. Kept Seb and my brother away for a while because I feared the former would hate the new age between us and he hurt me because I would remember Elijah. The later because of the connections to him. So... I isolated for a whole and struggles to find a reason to live again."